hello!!

i just wanna show you guys my video of my beloved baby brother.. wanna show it to guys for along time ago but didnt know how to so the only is to put his video in youtube.. hehe.. listen carefully to him at the first of the vidoe he actually said “nak nak!” means “i want!”   ENJOY!

i had a great time in school… our english teacher was absent so u know what its like.. when cats are away, the rats are out to play.. so many things to say… plus im so so so tired.. so i just show u the video ok? i adited this during MT lesson.. SIT BACK AND ENJOY!

taufiq is so gonna kill me when he find out his face at youtube… hehehe

hey!

just had my SJAB reunion just now but only a few of us turned up. met darren and arif at school in st.john room.. brought back lots of old memories!! darren was surprise on how much i have changed… haha!

after that me, nadiyah, nadiah, arif and darren had our lunch at sakura.. the was D-licious!! we all were so surprise when darren said he wanted to treat us.. he was being a gentleman! and yes he did treat us.. so sweet of u

i have lots of fun.. definately miss them alot! darren said we should do this every month.. hahaha no prob, darren!!

me and darren

awww… so cute!

at sakura

take care!!

hey!

yesterday at school was drama! drama! drama!. it was no ordinary school day thats for sure. it started with me feeling so stress and i just cant focus during lesson and i get pissed off at myself.. and mr.koh just making it worse by throwing negative words at me which hurt me alot as a student.. so after mr.koh’s lesson was maths lesson…suddenly, i have this feelings..the feelings was horrible.. i feel so lost, presurised, fustrated and i had even contemplated suicide… i was losing it.. and all i wanna do is to just get away from everything and everyone.. well, at that point of time i just wanna go home and rest so i can cool mysel down..

i dont know what happen, suddenly i broke down in tears. i, myself was surprised that i cried cus eversince my parent divorce, i learn how to control my emotion and since then i seldom cry and even my aunt always asked me dont u have feelings? yes i do just that i dont like to show it.

i was telling myself “stop crying! stop crying!” buy i just continue crying and i even have difficulties in breathing. i thought im gonna cry for awhile, so i just hide my face and then when i finished, i just wiped my tears and no one would notice.. but i was badly hurt and i was in so much pain. i guess i’ve been bottle up my feeling for so long and when i cry, i cant stop. when i realised i cant stop crying, i sms rafiqah secretly to bring me tissue. she brought me the tissue and next thing i know, miss chow was asking me if i wanted to go to toilet.  i nod my head n rafiqah follow to the toilet and then we went to mdm faz cus she always be there for me and never fail to cheer me up. when i try to tell her whats been bothering me, nothing come out from my mouth. i cant talk at all cus i was crying so badly. believe me, i never cry so bad in my life!! mdm faz said some words to cool me down.. i love her so much n she even gave me mnm chocolate! hehe!

had my recess in art room cus i was so embarrass to show my face to my friends. my eyes were red and even my face was red in colour untill syafiq asked me “u put lipbum on ur face too isit?” after that, we have to go to recess assembly.. and everyone was giving me a thumbs up… their way of asking me am i alright. very sweet of them.. shows how concern they are towards me.. love every single one of you

in afternoon, while i was having remedial with mr.nahar, mr.koh called me out and he lead me like a VIP at one place to sit.. kamilah and rafiqah followed but he asked them to go.. i so badly wanted them to stay cus i feel so awkward and shy cus its only me and mr.koh.. well, he apologised to me. who told him? kamilah and rafiqah. haha.. im so touched that he actually apolagised. he said that he never wanted to hurt my feelings and that he just joking around… his apolagise was very long but it was so sweet of him to do that.. never expect a teacher would apologise to a student. he even open the door for me!!!!! wah!!! so nice of him!
went back to the room and mr.nahar was like “haha get scolded from mr.koh…y? never do hw?!” *haiz* no comment… -_-
 

i kinda feel bad after that.. cus it seem like the main reason i cried was because of mr.koh but actually mr.koh was part of the reason only.. like i said i was so stress! that was the main reason and mr.koh just happen to hurt my feeling on that they.. he just make it worse. please dont think his the reason why… he’s a nice person actually.

thats all for today..

take care!

hello

i seriously love mariam fares.. she is an arab singer.. she is drop dead gorgeous!!! other then hindi songs, i do listen to arabic songs too

here’s her music video.. i know that some of you dont like arabic songs but just watch it for the sake of looking at her.. believe me.. she is so gorgeous!!

this is her latest song.. n i so love it… the song keep playing in my head over and over again..

thats all
take care!!!

hey..

yesterday, my aunts sleep over at my place.. at night me, my sis and my aunt jaan couldn’t sleep. so we talked up to 3am in the morning. we talked about our family background. as u know, im mix malay and north indian but my aunt is pure punjabi and my sister was confused why my great grandma and grandama could speak malay  and i only find out that my great great great grandpa(i really donno how many great is there) once married to a baba and the children was raised and spend mostly with their mother, so they grow up speaking malay.

for my case, my parent divorce when i was in primary sch, eversince, i have stopped contacting my father side anymore but ofcus me and my father are still in contact. if u ask me to name one of my cousin on my father’s side, i cant cus i really lost contact with them .. i am much more closer on my mother side. so i prefer hindi culture more. i dont listen to malay music and i dont watch malay movies.. i do watch some malay drama.. only if my friends said its really good. BUT i do listen to hindi and bangra songs and i do watch hindi movie. so many people mistaken me for being too modernise just because i dont follow malay tradition and i dont watch malay movie and i dont listen to malay songs.. when the malays heard about it, they will react like im doing some kinda sin.. please do not be confuse between race and religion.. yes! i dont follow malay tradition but that doesnt mean i forget my religion.. its really hard for me cus i hang out mostly with my malay friends and they always talking about malay dramas and singing malay songs and i just sitting one coner feeling so lost. its really strange how malay people asked me why i dont listen or watch malay movies cus i do have malay blood after all and how some indian could asked my sister why she didnt know how to speak indian and when my sis said she speaks english and malay at home they keep asking why? why?  but ur mom is indian and how come u dont speak indian.. see! how hard it is to be mix? cus the indians expect u to do this and the malays expect u to do that.. well, i hope i have answere ur questions. seriously, i love my mother side cus we are like totally rojak! u can find hindi, punjabi, malay, arab… u name it! we have it all.. and yes chinese too cus my step dad, his mom is pure chinese muslim.

from family back ground, we go to relationships.. my aunt jaan talked about her ex-bf.. almost perfect. didn’t drink(alcahol), didn’t smoke and very religious… but he is very possessive! her story line was almost like mine cus i went out with a very possissve guy before.. believe me.. it was my worse nightmare! just like me, my aunt find it really hard to break up with him cus one thing about possassive man, thay very smart in manipulating things… and because of that we, girls find it hard to break up with man like them! this guy expect her to glued with him where ever he goes and where ever she go, even to near by mama shop, she MUST sms him or else it will be a fight. even when my aunt wore a make up, he gets angry. man could be such an ass hole! and when days goes by, she started to realised that she changed alot.. cus she’s a happy-go-lucky type of person and bubbly and outgoing and when she’s with this guy, she went through depression.. just like me.. i can totally relate to her! she laso started to feel so down and has stopped smiling even.. untill everyone started to asked her why she changed..  for me, only my dear mdm faz realised that i was really feeling down and had to lied to her that i was having family problem cus i dont want anyone to know that i was having bf.. and only my dear kamilah know how i feel cus she the one who been listening to my prblems when im with that jerk! yea! after i broke up with him, im much much much happier and i still am! and i’ve been single ever since… single for two years baby!!! he made me realise how important my freedom is!

then we asked her how she broke up with that guy and she said that she had to be a bitch… the story is very very long so to cut it shot, she told him that she already has another boyfriend and that he his nothing to her anymore… i dont think she was being a bitch.. sometimes a girl got to do what a girls got to do to safe herself!

we have so many stories but that was the two highlight of the stories.. and today i didnt go to school cus of that.. we talked till 3am in the moring.. u cant expect me to have only 4hr of sleep right?!

"every women should have three pet in her life

a jaguar in the garage, a tiger in her bed and a jackass
who pay for it all"
-paris hilton

"a wise girl kisses but doesnt love, listen but doesnt believe
and leaves before she is left"
-marilyn monroe

MENtal enxiety
MENtal breakdown
MENstrual cramps
MENapause...

did u ever notice how all our problems begin with MEN?

hi

last 2 days i went to the air port cus my aunt was going back to london.. im going to miss her alot… it was very sad to see her go and everyone cried..

the one that going to london is the one wearing green t-shirt

my sis and aunt ikin

and then yesterday, i went to the air port again!! with my sis.. we wanted to take hardip actually… it was his first time flying as a steward.. so we were really excited for him and what he will tell us all the drama  stories he has gone through.. he just got back from korea yesterday and tomorrow he has to go to australia, sidney!! and next mont they sending him to paris for five days!!! im so jelous!!

haha.. hardip is very shy of the camera

we were in the cab otw to hardip’s house

hardip look ver tired.. well, he is!!

i was bored so i took pic of myself 

went to hardip’s place for awhile and then headed to tamp mall to catch a movie ‘hellboy’. while buying pop corns, i heard someone said “anisah se!!” and it was damn loud!! and they are my class mate but only the chinese boys.. there were bunch of them… let me see if can name all of them.. thiam seng, ning porn, jei woei, yuan zhe, chun chuan, and more that i forget… i only remember there were so many of them… they were my life saver.. the Q was so long and they were at the from.. thx to them, i dont have to Q… hehehe!
they wanted to watch hellboy also but the ticket was sold out and for my case, i dont get a good seat.. but i wasn’t that bad…

thats hardip being retarded

wussup gangsta!!

haha.. tts all
take care

hey!

so today post, i will just show u guys racial harmony concert pictures as promised. i have to make it quick cus i got so many homeworks and so many things to study. cant wait for this o’level to finish.. i just wanna get it over with!!!

so here it is>>>

thats all!

take care

hello

went to racial harmony concert yesterday and the performances were superb. i have a blast yesterday with all my friends and also met some ex-changkat friends.. one of them is roy!! hahaha i miss him alot!!!! we took lots of pictures but i cant show it today cus all the pictures are at salamah’s camera. anyway, the uniform group is super super cute!!! something different and very interesting.. they really did a good job!! my most fave are ccss MJ and the malay dancers… they were fabulous! i seriously love their performance!

after the concert, me and my friends supose to go to sempang bedok to eat but salamah wanted to go home and i want to watch my contender asia. so we go to east point for awhile to buy drinks… we were really really thirsty.  actually i really really feel bad for leaving mariam, sukhy, rafiqah and syafiq. we kinda left them. they have reached at sempang bedok frist because we were busy taking pictures and they dont want to wait for us so they went there first. and for syafiq’s case, we kinda lost him *ooops!* i think he’s pretty angry at us. im so so so so so sorry to mariam, sukhy, rafiqah and syafiq.. i really feel so bad.. again im sorry!

hahaha! atleast i gotta watch some part of contender asia… when i on the tv, they were already at their locker room preparing to fight. yesterday, JWP vs zidov. its really obvious whos gonna win! zidov can hardly made it when he fought with zach… zidov just get lucky that zach’s shoulder was dislocated. yes JWP won! muahaha! i saw jaymee ong cried when zidov lost.. im alittle sad to see him go to be honest… hes really a nice guy.. he never bitch about any of guys and really funny guy too..

i love to watch JWP doing the wai khru. i must say he got style!! he so adorable..! since i got no pictures of the racial harmony concert yet,  i will show u the pictures of men from contender asia.. cus some of u might not watch it… dont worry, this men are sizzling hot!!!

bruce (the most hotest!!)

JWP (the most adorable guy)

soren (the most good looking guy!)

sean (the cutest among all!)

zach! (we just gotta love him… he did singapore proud!)

the 3 Aussie!! ohh just look at bruce.. HOT! (JWP, bruse and soren)

heres a video or jaymee ong doing wai khru with JWP, sean, jabba and yod… check out sean (he became blonde in this video).. sean is super super cute!!!

thats all for now
gonna post lost of picture in my next post

take care!

hello

i didnt go to school cus im sick AGAIN!! i dont like being. i dont like it! i dont like it! hate it!!!! tomorrow is the Racial Harmony Concert and most of us are looking foward for that day. i just hope they put a great show. i know last 2 years concert was Amazingly good and thats why bought the ticket again.

anyway, i’ve been addicted to this song “when i grow up” by PCD. i love PCD… im so envy their sexy body!! i want flat tummy like nichole!!! anyway, here’s the video

hello!

so the day of my tuition has changed from sat to sun.. and today tuition are very different and very interesting… gosh!! salamah is so funny!! never see her look so shy before… muahahaha!

anyway.. i was online in msn and there just so many of my myspace friends and friendster friends. seriously there are too many of them (im not trying to brag or anything im just trying to tell how i feel) so how am i suppose to remember everyone of them throught their email add?? its really confusing.. some even claim that “he” is my ex-bf?!?!?!?! seriously dude, u cant even remember ur ex-gf’s face??
here is our conversation:
[a=1][u][c=#FA1223]–==DiDi1two5z==– wArRiOr Of AiR, lAnD aNd SeA. wE cOnQuEr ThE dAy, We CoNqUeR tHe NiGhT[/c][/u][/a] says:

wat hav u been up 2

Nur Anisah says:

well… studying my mock test.. im sorry.. whats ur name?

[a=1][u][c=#FA1223]–==DiDi1two5z==– wArRiOr Of AiR, lAnD aNd SeA. wE cOnQuEr ThE dAy, We CoNqUeR tHe NiGhT[/c][/u][/a] says:

u 4got me

[a=1][u][c=#FA1223]–==DiDi1two5z==– wArRiOr Of AiR, lAnD aNd SeA. wE cOnQuEr ThE dAy, We CoNqUeR tHe NiGhT[/c][/u][/a] says:

does rusydi ring a bell

Nur Anisah says:

gosh!!! im so sorry!! i havent online for a very long time..

Nur Anisah says:

okay…. what do u noe about me so far??

[a=1][u][c=#FA1223]–==DiDi1two5z==– wArRiOr Of AiR, lAnD aNd SeA. wE cOnQuEr ThE dAy, We CoNqUeR tHe NiGhT[/c][/u][/a] says:

anisah

[a=1][u][c=#FA1223]–==DiDi1two5z==– wArRiOr Of AiR, lAnD aNd SeA. wE cOnQuEr ThE dAy, We CoNqUeR tHe NiGhT[/c][/u][/a] says:

u tottally ingat langsung

Nur Anisah says:

hmmm… how u know me

Nur Anisah says:

???

Nur Anisah says:

through friendster?

[a=1][u][c=#FA1223]–==DiDi1two5z==– wArRiOr Of AiR, lAnD aNd SeA. wE cOnQuEr ThE dAy, We CoNqUeR tHe NiGhT[/c][/u][/a] says:

im ur ex la dengs….

[a=1][u][c=#FA1223]–==DiDi1two5z==– wArRiOr Of AiR, lAnD aNd SeA. wE cOnQuEr ThE dAy, We CoNqUeR tHe NiGhT[/c][/u][/a] says:

prss

[a=1][u][c=#FA1223]–==DiDi1two5z==– wArRiOr Of AiR, lAnD aNd SeA. wE cOnQuEr ThE dAy, We CoNqUeR tHe NiGhT[/c][/u][/a] says:

few years back

Nur Anisah says:

rusydi???

[a=1][u][c=#FA1223]–==DiDi1two5z==– wArRiOr Of AiR, lAnD aNd SeA. wE cOnQuEr ThE dAy, We CoNqUeR tHe NiGhT[/c][/u][/a] says:

yar…

Nur Anisah says:

n u my ex?? ex-what?? friend???

[a=1][u][c=#FA1223]–==DiDi1two5z==– wArRiOr Of AiR, lAnD aNd SeA. wE cOnQuEr ThE dAy, We CoNqUeR tHe NiGhT[/c][/u][/a] says:

ouch…

[a=1][u][c=#FA1223]–==DiDi1two5z==– wArRiOr Of AiR, lAnD aNd SeA. wE cOnQuEr ThE dAy, We CoNqUeR tHe NiGhT[/c][/u][/a] says:

remember syra

[a=1][u][c=#FA1223]–==DiDi1two5z==– wArRiOr Of AiR, lAnD aNd SeA. wE cOnQuEr ThE dAy, We CoNqUeR tHe NiGhT[/c][/u][/a] says:

sunplaza

[a=1][u][c=#FA1223]–==DiDi1two5z==– wArRiOr Of AiR, lAnD aNd SeA. wE cOnQuEr ThE dAy, We CoNqUeR tHe NiGhT[/c][/u][/a] says:

i was ur senior in sch…

Nur Anisah says:

which sch u from???

[a=1][u][c=#FA1223]–==DiDi1two5z==– wArRiOr Of AiR, lAnD aNd SeA. wE cOnQuEr ThE dAy, We CoNqUeR tHe NiGhT[/c][/u][/a] says:

prss

Nur Anisah says:

pasir ris??

[a=1][u][c=#FA1223]–==DiDi1two5z==– wArRiOr Of AiR, lAnD aNd SeA. wE cOnQuEr ThE dAy, We CoNqUeR tHe NiGhT[/c][/u][/a] says:

yala….

Nur Anisah says:

im not from pasir ris sec

[a=1][u][c=#FA1223]–==DiDi1two5z==– wArRiOr Of AiR, lAnD aNd SeA. wE cOnQuEr ThE dAy, We CoNqUeR tHe NiGhT[/c][/u][/a] says:

u stay bdk reservoir rite

Nur Anisah says:

ummmm… no.. i think u got the wrong girl rusydi

[a=1][u][c=#FA1223]–==DiDi1two5z==– wArRiOr Of AiR, lAnD aNd SeA. wE cOnQuEr ThE dAy, We CoNqUeR tHe NiGhT[/c][/u][/a] says:

hmm…

[a=1][u][c=#FA1223]–==DiDi1two5z==– wArRiOr Of AiR, lAnD aNd SeA. wE cOnQuEr ThE dAy, We CoNqUeR tHe NiGhT[/c][/u][/a] says:

i rememba d email…

[a=1][u][c=#FA1223]–==DiDi1two5z==– wArRiOr Of AiR, lAnD aNd SeA. wE cOnQuEr ThE dAy, We CoNqUeR tHe NiGhT[/c][/u][/a] says:

name n face same…

Nur Anisah says:

what???

Nur Anisah says:

im anisah but i dont remember u

[a=1][u][c=#FA1223]–==DiDi1two5z==– wArRiOr Of AiR, lAnD aNd SeA. wE cOnQuEr ThE dAy, We CoNqUeR tHe NiGhT[/c][/u][/a] says:

damn i feel lyk a fool

Nur Anisah says:

if u my x…. i definately remember u

[a=1][u][c=#FA1223]–==DiDi1two5z==– wArRiOr Of AiR, lAnD aNd SeA. wE cOnQuEr ThE dAy, We CoNqUeR tHe NiGhT[/c][/u][/a] says:

if u asy u nt frm prss den i shud b rong..

[a=1][u][c=#FA1223]–==DiDi1two5z==– wArRiOr Of AiR, lAnD aNd SeA. wE cOnQuEr ThE dAy, We CoNqUeR tHe NiGhT[/c][/u][/a] says:

sorries…

well there u go… thats not the first time that i got such a wierd conversation…. i will get really really annoyed when they forced me to give my number to them and want to meet me… STOP PRESURING ME!!!! there even one of them trying to make me jelous cus i dont wanna meet them,, like showing their picture with a girl and telling me tt his special friend.. hmmm… ok.. im sooooooo jelous cus u the only guy out there for me right… gosh!! thats lame la!!